Day 146, Friday, October 20, 2017
For anyone who has to make a daily commute to downtown Los Angeles from the Inland Empire…I am so, so sorry…that commute is AWFUL! Tim and I had to make the trip from Menifee to West LA in order to get to my bone marrow/stem cell transplant consult appointment. Even though we left early, we still had to sit in 2 hours of stop and go traffic – which was okay only because we took the time as husband and wife to ask each other questions like what a perfect date with other would look like, what we would do if we had a million dollars, and who we would swap places with for a day. The time passed quickly enough and we got there a little after 10 a.m.
We met with Dr. Farol, who will be my bone marrow/stem cell oncologist and although Dr. Jang is a very good doctor, I wish that we had started with Dr. Farol to begin with. MUCH better bedside manner and he really took the time to explain to both Tim and I what to expect in the next chapter of killing George. He even drew us pictures, a graph and a timeline just to be extra thorough.
So here is where we stand: Dr. Farol is recommending that I get one more PET scan and a biopsy of the tumor done before we move forward. He wants to be ABSOLUTELY sure that the tumor is still active before we keep going with an invasive treatment plan. .
If the biopsy and the PET scan both come out negative (meaning that the tumor has truly died and I am in remission) then I will be doing radiation and no transplant. Radiation in the area where the tumor is poses the risk of a 5-10% chance that I will have breast cancer 3-5 years post treatment and also the risk of developing something called radiation-induced carotid artery stenosis….
umm…English please?
Carotid artery stenosis = plaque build up in my arteries which leads to heart disease
If the biopsy and the PET scan are both positive (meaning the tumor is active and still aggressive) then I will need to start the transplant process. If the PET scan is negative and the biopsy is positive, I’ll still need to start the transplant process. The risks factor for stem cell transplant is a 3-5% chance that I will develop leukemia. I will need to have a series of tests run including: bone marrow biopsy, cardiac stress test, echocardiogram, 12-lead EKG, lung test, blood/urine tests and a dental clearance exam. I’ll need to have two cycles of R-ICE chemotherapy (3 days in the hospital in Riverside getting chemo and 18 days of rest in between). After the 2 cycles of R-ICE, I’ll need to start getting daily injections of Zarxio/Neupogen which is used to boost my white blood cell production. I’ll have to have a Hickman catheter implant which is what they will use to harvest my stem cells after 7-10 days of starting the daily injections. The stem cell harvest process takes anywhere from 2-5 days. City of Hope will house Tim and I at the City of Hope campus while they are harvesting my stem cells so they can freeze them at their lab after they are collected. Once Dr. Farol has enough of my stem cells (about 4 million are needed), I’ll have a week to recover at home before I will need to be admitted to the City of Hope hospital. Once I’m admitted, I will be given another chemo regimen called BEAM chemotherapy. This is an extremely high dose chemo protocol which will be given to me everyday for 7 days. I will then be allowed to rest for 24 hours before they infuse my collected stem cells back into my body. I’ll need to be in the hospital for a total of 3 to 3 1/2 weeks from the time I am admitted and will be discharged once stem cells start producing white blood cells, red blood cells and platelets on their own.
While I am at City of Hope, Dr. Farol is encouraging me to have visitors (adults only). My immune system will be at zero, so I will have my own room with a special filter to keep germs out. Visitors who come see me will need be sure they are not sick at the time and will only be allowed in with mask, gloves and gown on. Visitors will also be able to donate blood to me since there is a high chance that I will need blood transfusions while my stem cells are building up. My kids can come see me occasionally and COH will be providing our family with social workers and a team to help the kids handle what is going with me while I’m in the hospital.
Dr. Farol believes that I have Primary Mediastinal Large B-Cell Lymphoma which is a rare Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma subtype and accounts for approximately 2% of all NHL cases. He will be consulting with the doctors at City of Hope to discuss my case and confirm what the best course of action should be. I should be hearing from Kaiser next week to schedule the biopsy and PET scan and then go from there.
I know I just threw up a bunch of technical medical information at you – trust me, Tim and I took a long nap as soon as we got home because of the information overload and stress and anxiety of the appointment.
So how am I feeling after today’s appointment? Relieved that the appointment finally happened. Annoyed that I have to have another biopsy, PET scan and possibly more chemo. Freaked out by the risk factors of either options. Frustrated that either option is going to pose its own challenges during and after the treatment ends. Happy that there’s a high chance that I’ll still be home for Thanksgiving and Christmas…but most of all at peace with the whole situation in general.
Even though it feels like we are taking baby steps towards my goal of full remission, they are still steps forward…
“But now, God’s Message,
the God who made you in the first place, Jacob,
the One who got you started, Israel:
“Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you.
I’ve called your name. You’re mine.
When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you.
When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down.
When you’re between a rock and a hard place,
it won’t be a dead end—
Because I am God, your personal God,
The Holy of Israel, your Savior.
I paid a huge price for you:
all of Egypt, with rich Cush and Seba thrown in!
That’s how much you mean to me!
That’s how much I love you!
I’d sell off the whole world to get you back,
trade the creation just for you.”
-Isaiah 43: 1-4